12:10 AM
Date: December 23, 2011
Music: S.O.L.O. by Super Junior M (Skip Beat OST)
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It’s the day before Christmas Eve.
And I’m not feeling it.
At all.
I remember
When I was younger.
It was white outside and the light would reflect off of the snow and ricochet into my bedroom to wake me up in the morning and I could just rest there and look at how beautifully bright my room was.
And then I dragged myself out of a deliciously warm bed and hobbled downstairs and ate something warm and sweet for breakfast. And then I would sit in front of the tree and look at the presents. Speculate. Wonder. Be giddy.
I don’t feel it.
I miss it.
I feel like I’ve grown up.
I don’t want to lose this part of my childhood.
Some parts I’ve shoved out the door, glad they were gone.
This?
This isn’t one of them.
