January 2012
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10:10 PM
Date: December 31, 2011
Music: The SHINee World (Japanese Ver.) by SHINee (The First)
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Alright.
My apologies.
But
Nonetheless
I came to realization
As we were walking the dog
In the cold.
I’ve been writing in tPLoaMB for a little longer than a year.
And, in my second entry, I wrote about the concept of a new year, as to how people viewed it as a new start and as something important,...
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6:36 PM
Date: December 31, 2011
Music: Ring Ding Dong by SHINee (2009, Year Of Us)
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I came to a realization approximately 24 minutes ago.
But I’m low on time.
I will add an entry as soon as I get back.
December 2011
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4:45 PM
Date: December 30, 2011
Music: Me, In by Wonder Girls (Wonder World)
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So we were in the car.
And I turn back towards Emily and tell her what Mom said about Kibum.
And my mom goes and says, “Well, I’m sorry. He just looks so perfect.”
And Emily shrieks “I KNOW!” at an eardrum-shattering pitch.
It was funny.
But in any case, it made me think.
I was under the impression that she thought...
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10:57 PM
Date: December 29, 2011
Music: none
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…though this time she asked about Kibum instead of Tae.
Ha ha, Emily. Ha ha.
Though she did stare at this one picture of Jjong for a couple of seconds.
…he was kind of making a derpy face in it, too.
Oh, you just love impressing my mother, don’t you, boys.
.
…and the guyliner doesn’t help, Bummie. Hate to break it to you.
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10:52 PM
Date: December 29, 2011
Music: none
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My copy of 2009, Year Of Us arrived today.
My mom flipped through it.
Guess what she asked me.
Again.
.
Honestly, how many times do I have to explain that it’s a boy band. Boy.
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7:52 AM
Date: December 28, 2011
Music: Como Un Sueno by Kat Deluna (9 Lives)
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Happy 1st Birthday, tPLoaMB.
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1:26 AM
Date: December 24, 2011
Music: To Your Heart by SHINee (The First)
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Christmas Eve, everyone.
Still not feeling it.
What makes it?
Snow?
The gifts?
The stupid tree?
The religion I left behind?
I don’t know.
But it doesn’t feel as magical as it once did.
And I regret that.
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12:10 AM
Date: December 23, 2011
Music: S.O.L.O. by Super Junior M (Skip Beat OST)
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It’s the day before Christmas Eve.
And I’m not feeling it.
At all.
I remember
When I was younger.
It was white outside and the light would reflect off of the snow and ricochet into my bedroom to wake me up in the morning and I could just rest there and look at how beautifully bright my room was.
And then I...
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10:08 PM
Date: December 2, 2011
Music: Girls on Top by BoA (Deluxe: 1st US Album)
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PLEASE.
WAIT.
Yes, it is bad for that girl to put on the headdress and say she likes to pretend she’s a Native American princess.
But could you please tell her why it’s wrong instead of calling her a “jackass” and claiming how “this shit is disgusting”?
Yes, yes it is.
But please understand that she likely...
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9:39 PM
Date: December 2, 2011
Music: 마지막 선물 (Last Gift) (In My Room-Prelude) by SHINee (The SHINee World)
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So I’ve spent the last 20 minutes or so reading a blog by a young woman who speaks about cultural appropriation often.
And she talks about white supremacy.
And ignorant white people.
A lot.
And she’s not racist, no, please, don’t take it that way.
But I’m trying to...
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8:29 PM
Date: November 30, 2011
Music: Chai Tea Latte by Angel Taylor (Love Traveler)
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The internet isn’t working.
This angers me.
November 2011
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6:28 PM
Date: November 27, 2011
Music: Nara by E.S. Posthumus (Unearthed)
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Maybe another reason I don’t want to get into a relationship is due to the fact that it might end.
What if it ends and you have to see them every day, walk past them, talk to them, be around them.
How could you ever act normally after having known them intimately?
No you idiots I did not mean that to be an allusion...
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5:53 PM
Date: November 27, 2011
Music: My Immortal by Evanescence (Fallen)
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I…
I’m sick of having this desire for things that aren’t good for me.
I’m sick of being scared of it falling apart.
It’s crippling.
I hear whispers of doom or of possible fallouts or of disbandment and these things terrify me. My heart contracts in on itself and leaves its exoskeleton behind, a fragile bubble waiting to...
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4:24 PM
Date: November 26, 2011
Music: What You Want by Evanescence (What You Want)
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Wait.
Jonghyun’s an atheist?
.
..
…
My life just got a little bit better.
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7:15 PM
Date: November 24, 2011
Music: Tick Tack by U-KISS (Tick Tack)
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There’s a reason why I don’t have any “best” friends.
There’s a reason why there isn’t a person that knows me that well, that can speak for me and that can know what I say before I speak.
It’s because of K-pop.
Korean pop has taken up so much oh my life… I spend my entire day with something from K-pop on my mind, whether...
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10:05 PM
Date: November 21, 2011
Music: Thug Le by Ranveer Singh (Ladies vs Ricky Bahl)
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I have this growing suspicion that there is a small possibility that my mother is suspecting that I am, in fact, gay.
Even though I’m not.
I think.
Maybe I’m overthinking and overanalyzing things, which I surely am, but I can’t help but feel like she thinks I’m alluding to it.
I mean, I’m a huge advocator...
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7:23 PM
Date: November 21, 2011
Music: none
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I can’t see the stars.
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7:23 PM
Date: November 21, 2011
Music: Hello by SHINee (Hello Repackage)
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Isn’t it weird that such an inherently homophobic culture has pop stars of the same sex kiss each other for the fans’ attention/partake in skinship/flirt with each other/etc.
Isn’t it.
It’s weird that pop culture allows for something so condemned by their society.
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9:58 PM
Date: November 20, 2011
Music: none
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Make that 9 times.
…and I want to watch it again.
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9:49 PM
Date: November 20, 2011
Music: none
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Okay.
After watching that fancam 7 times in a row, I think it’s official.
I’ve convinced myself that I’m in love.
I really am delusional dear god.
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7:23 PM
Date: November 13, 2011
Music: Stranger by SHINee (The First)
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I promised myself today
That I would buy every single one of those damn albums.
Every
Single
One.
I will do it.
…eventually.
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9:27 PM
Date: November 13, 2011
Music: Always Love by SHINee (The First)
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Is it possible to roll around in a song.
Like, to completely coat yourself in it.
Absorb into it?
To literally become a part of it?
…why not?
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4:54 PM
Date: November 13, 2011
Music: Start by SHINee (The First)
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I’ve reiterated this point enough.
But I’m going to do it again.
It fucking tears your heart out to think you’re in love with someone whom you can never have.
Fucking tears it out and shreds it.
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10:10 PM
Date: November 6, 2011
Music: Lollipop by Koda Kumi (Déjà Vu)
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Sometimes I wish I could stop myself from caring.
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5:11 PM
Date: November 1, 2011
Music: Shout Out by SHINee (Lucifer)
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I will never understand how they are able to walk through that airport with fans screaming and screeching and motherfucking tackling them and then being able to smile when they see fans cheering for them onstage.
I admire them so much for that.
But I fear that the smiles aren’t real.
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10:18 PM
Date: October 13, 2011
Music: Orinoco Flow by Enya (The Very Best of Enya)
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I still get so incredibly pissed off when they turn the Wi-Fi off at 10-fucking-18 at night.
Do they realize that I usually get home at 9:30 due to crew.
Then 15 minutes in the shower.
And then that leaves me 20-or-so minutes online.
That is not even APPROACHING enough.
And I stay up until 11:30 or 12...
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10:42 PM
Date: October 12, 2011
Music: No Leaf Clover by Metallica (Live)
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I always write better when I’m typing on a computer.
Well, creative writing.
I don’t get it.
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10:45 PM
Date: October 10, 2011
Music: Welcome to the World by Kevin Rudolf feat. Rick Ross (In the City)
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Those moments
when someone is so attractive
you just kind of want to keel over and die.
…I don’t know whether it’s jealousy or want, but still.
I’m dying.
…happily.
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7:15 PM
Date: October 4, 2011
Music: Love Like Oxygen by SHINee (The SHINee World)
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This song is actually kind of dark, despite the happier, light sound of it, if you read the (in my case, translated) lyrics.
Maybe a lot of things are that way.
You know?
The happier things aren’t so sparkles-and-rainbows if you look at them through the right pair of glasses.
Hmm.
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10:44 PM
Date: October 3, 2011
Music: Love Like Oxygen by SHINee (The SHINee World)
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…browsing through Tumblr.
Come across a new picture of my bias.
Bias is wearing a rosary necklace in picture.
I find this attractive.
And I don’t know why.
Because Christianity usually just weirds me out.
…what.
Excuse you, self?
I didn’t know you were that shallow.
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10:13 PM
Date: October 3, 2011
Music: The Party Rock Anthem as played by the Ohio University Marching 110
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You know those times when you feel like absolutely nothing, like no one.
Yeah.
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6:20 PM
Date: October 3, 2011
Music: Scared silence
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….but how is what I listen to any better.
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6:17 PM
Date: October 3, 2011
Music: Blissful silence, for my ears are blistered
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OH MY GOD.
JUST
EXCUSE YOU.
THERE GO MY LAST VESTIGES OF HOPE FOR THE AMERICAN MUSIC INDUSTRY.
WHY DID YOU MAKE THAT VIDEO.
AND WHAT THE FUCK ABOUT YOUR NAME
“HEART2HEART”
WHAT.
JUST
NO.
“FACEBOOK OFFICAL” WELL GUESS WHAT THAT ACTUALLY REALLY MADE ME WANT TO DELETE MY FACEBOOK.
AND THEN THE TAGS
YOU GO AHEAD AND...
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6:56 PM
Date: October 2, 2011
Music: Silence
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…dear lord.
SM Entertainment.
What the fuck did I just watch.
You know what?
Screw you.
Screw you, SM, for screwing over your artists and making them look cheap.
Screw you for ruining a once-excellent song.
Get them the fuck out of Japan.
And don’t you ever let them go back.
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5:02 PM
Date: October 2, 2011
Music: Dynamite (Piano Ver.) by Pianistmiri on YouTube
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“Why does it have to become an extension of your existence?”
An extension.
Of existence.
Of everything.
…I don’t know.
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11:56PM
Date: September 23, 2011
Music: Sixth Sense by Brown Eyed Girls (Sixth Sense)
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There were too many ups-and-downs today.
Way too many.
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10:19 PM
Date: September 22, 2011
Music: Lucifer (Japanese Ver.) by SHINee (Lucifer; Japanese Edition)
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Just read an article about Satanism.
Some parts of it made sense.
Others didn’t.
It just seems like… such a vengeful school of thought.
I don’t know how I feel about it.
It’s not like I have any desire or want to subscribe to it.
But I was just curious.
So I researched.
Satanism is…...
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8:44 PM
Date: September 18, 2011
Music: Juliette (Japanese Ver.) by SHINee (Juliette)
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Thinking deep thoughts about death and regrets and life while watching K-pop music videos in glorious HD.
What is the matter with me.
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3:35 PM
Date: September 18, 2011
Music: Bad Body Double by Imogen Heap (Ellipse)
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You know, I think it’s just one of those kind of days.
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3:21 PM
Date: September 18, 2011
Music: Bad Body Double by Imogen Heap (Ellipse)
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Boys find my little sister hot.
Boys find my little sister hot.
Boys find my little sister hot.
Boys find my little sister hot.
Boys find my little sister hot.
Boys find my little sister hot.
Conflicting emotions right now to be honest.
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11:51 PM
Date: September 15, 2011
Music: Kiss Kiss Kiss by SHINee (Juliette)
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Is it strange that I find it strange that I love someone of my own volition instead of being told to or having society expect me to?
Is it.
Is
it.
Because I think it is.
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11:43 PM
Date: September 15, 2011
Music: Let’s Dance by Teen Top (틴탑)
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Damn it this isn’t even some intellectual study anymore…not that it ever was, but…
It’s a journal.
Don’t you dare call it a diary if you do I will personally see to it that your retinas are clawed out in your sleep.
Well done, Ree, well done. Yet another failure.
Add it to the list.
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11:37 PM
Date: September 15, 2011
Music: Hit Me by SHINee (Romeo)
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Falling in love all over again is a wonderful feeling.
In other news, I’m pathetic and sappy and yay this is pointless.
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5:19 PM
Date: September 15, 2011
Music: none
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wanderlust (n.)
a strong, irresistible desire or impulse to travel and explore the world.
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10:33 PM
Date: September 13, 2011
Music: Top That by U-KISS (Neverland)
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And yep.
There goes the internet.
Fuck my life.
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10:15 PM
Date: September 13, 2011
Music: Some Day by U-KISS (Neverland)
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Now they are thinking about turning off the Wi-Fi at 9pm every night.
9
P
M
Excuse me, but
WHAT
THE
FUCK
ARE
YOU
DOING.
I swear…
You wonder why I don’t tell you anything, huh?
Well maybe it’s because when I tell you I wake up at...
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10:19 PM
Date: September 12, 2011
Music: Best Thing I Never Had by Beyoncé (Best Thing I Never Had)
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And little do they know I can spend hours entertaining myself by watching my background rotate through the Japanese Juliette album scans.
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10:08 PM
Date: September 12, 2011
Music: Some Day by U-KISS (Neverland)
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They turned off the Wi-Fi again.
But my phone receives texts from Facebook.
And I still have god-knows-how-many hours of video on my iPod.
So
I win.
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11:08 PM
Date: September 11, 2011
Music: Baby Don’t Cry by U-KISS (Neverland)
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My parents turned off the fucking Wi-Fi again.
Well guess what.
I will stay up until 2 in the fucking morning watching videos on my iPod anyways.
Damn you.
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5:00 PM
Date: September 11, 2011
Music: Mirotic (Classic ver.) by TVXQ/DBSK (Premium Classical Collection)
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I don’t remember that day.
I was only 5.
It was just like any other day for me.